Comment on the outoftouchunionist Blog.

Hello. As a nationalist I was curious to see what the other side were saying, i imagined it a mirror and it seems i was right.

You guys seem pretty chill.. and I don't know if you will react with hate towards me, but I want to share why I am a nationalist, despite all the opinions to the contrary, here is my story.

As a child I lived in Norfolk England, we had moved away from a town outside of Glasgow, we were in Norfolk for a short time but still it left an impression on me. Even the teachers treated me with disdain, they would speak directly to me or to the other teachers about me, all this was directed by the theme i was Scottish, i was the butt of their jokes and criticisms. One teacher treated me abusively, I was 6 yo and 2 years later I realized why the German kid was so happy I came.  They use to call him.. well you can imagine, but now a Scot was there, the pressure was off for him, so the children could hate on a Scot, which going by their reaction was worse than certain german history.

This left me with a sub-conscious impression i was 'meant' to be less than the English. Which manifested itself 6 or 7 years later, coming back in the rain one Sunday from Ingliston Market  with a spray painted sign 'English go home!'. it make me realize that we weren't all one country and the feelings i had were understandable.

I wanted to know more. So I asked around, watched TV programs, any information I could get my hands on as 12yo boy. I had watched Margaret Thatcher on TV.. her voice seemed like she hated us Scots. With every timber of her voice she washed away the ties of the worlds wars we had shared (through my teens) . Every week some news story about her closing down scottish jobs. When John Major came into office.. he reformed the social system.. I was 17yo, I was struggling to find a job, and so had to visit the DHSS as it was called then. before him.. it was much like the TV Show 'Bread' DHSS.. after him it was a place you could go and not feel bad.

I had already made up my mind i was nationalist. we had a meager following, with my home town drawing only 300 votes for the SNP one year later, in the general election. I had access to more information now, accumulated by watching every TV show I could on Scottish independence.

By now, I did not feel 'British' I felt ..Scottish. And when ever i had any doubts of this, all i would need to do is travel to England see how they treated me. Of course I have English friends and they treat me well or they would not be my friends; however, I have enough instances to prove to myself that English officials treated me poorly compared to an English counterpart. I am a second class citizen in Britain, and first class in Scotland. Perhaps you find my references vague.. couple of stories should suffice.

My fiancee and I are trying to get her in to this country, we had 2 rejections of a visit visa for her .. so on the third we decided to copy the letters of a Welsh guy and his fiancee. We are similar enough situations that whatever we had done wrong the previous application this should have mended the discrepancies. The Welsh guy and his fiancee got accepted. we got refused. The ECO even adding little cheeky comments to us in the reply letter.

I was previously involved with an American woman. She was an ex army vet with all sorts of clearances.First time she came to visit she landed in Edinburgh. not a problem. Second time she landed in Heathrow. She was going through customs happily chirping 'I'm going to see my Scottish boyfriend' like she often did. As soon as she said Scottish, they pulled her. 7 hours of degrading treatment doing unspeakable things to her.

THIS IS ENGLAND. this is what England represents to me, this is what Britain represents to me.
People who think they can do such things and get away with them. and right enough they did get away with it, why? because they were English. Even though we are no longer together.. I wish i knew that womans house that defiled my ex.. so I could set her house on fire!

I myself have never been detained in an English airport, but they day might come where i wish i had a Scottish embassy as an option to not slit a custom officer throat for trying to defile me.

Not pleasant is it?

Britain is an ENGLISH country. Run by English for English. Honestly the EU did a better job in 30 years then the English did in 200. Ignore and deny Scottish wishes.. save Donald Dewar, who rightly, earned his statue in Glasgow.

We must face facts.

1) Scotland does not vote in the same way England does.
2) England has a higher population than Scotland; so that means their votes combined will  always 'win'
3) Nationalists like myself, are miserable with the status quo i.e being ruled by England in any matter. because the 2 points above.

4) people see our passion.. and respond to it. mostly in a positive way, some negative but very few.

I guess they have that passion for Britain and what that means to them. But to me Britain will always be a fallacy, an idea of a united kingdom, but in practise; Scotland is a long term occupied country. This is what truly makes me sad.. and the idea of Britain makes me sad. I want to be happy.. and that happiness comes at the price of freedom from England. In my town now.. 22 years after the SNP got those 300 votes.. everytime the SNP win at something. People here are happy for a few days after. The girl in the shop smiles easier and tells a joke.. people walking down the street will say hi for a few days. I live in a place that was pretty hostile for around 40 years ( whole town, not some seedy slum. i live in a good area myself). people get  .. happy for a few days. I want that for Scotland  FULL time!.. like when I visit other countries and the people are HAPPY!